ITE or Private?

Posted: Wednesday, June 30, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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I'm deciding for very long whether to start from ITE or take up private.. The problem is money.. if i have money... i'd surely take up private or even go overseas to study.. Life's hard.. but it's ok.. i serve a great God.. and great things happens.
Of course.. if you know me.. i like the arts industry.. like music... composing... playing.. performing.. dancing.. related.. so i have plan A here..
PLAN A

  • Enroll into ITE CHUA CHU KANG next year 2011. Taking up Audio & Video Technology. Anyway.. the new ITE in Chua Chu Kang is like HUGE. It's another version of ITE College East Simei. WOOTS
  • Gotta do really well to secure a GPA more than 3.5 to be able to advance to Polytechnic.
  • Once i get the required GPA, I'll take up Sonic Arts in Republic Polytechnic.
  • And hopefully, i'd be praying.. to major in music related course in University. And only God.. can make it happen.

Yea.. that's Plan A. Sorry.. Plan B... haven't thought of any.. Unless an angel comes and offers me a contract.. offer to groom me... offer to sponsor me to all the needs i need to produce good music... Dance... ha... other than that.. i guess... face the reality! haha.
But i am really looking forward to school! Dying to go back to school! I just don't understand why student nowadays dread going to school.. like what the heck's wrong with them? C'mon.. school is like so fun.. pray that God will bring me through the times and brings what's best for me yea? Thanks. =D

Come Home Running to God.

Posted: Monday, June 28, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness 


So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

It was then You who carried me all the way.

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One night i had a dream. I dreamt I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. 


For each scene i noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to mine and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of my life. 


This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it. 


"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way, however I noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed you most you would leave me." 


The Lord replied, "my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you." 




Thank You Lord. 

About the Lord's Prayer.

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It is important that we review "The Lord's Prayer" from time to time, for a number of reasons

  • As a check - to see if we are praying aright.
  • As motivation to learn how to pray at a deeper level.
  • As a guide , so that our prayers to the Lord are more organized.


REVIEWING OUR PRAYER LIFE
  • Is our relationship with God as Father deeper and more meaningful as we pray to Him each day?
  • Are we more conscious of how we should hallow or sanctify our Father's Holy Name, even as we pray?
  • Are we praying for things related to the Lord's Kingdom?
  • Are we more submissive to the Will of the Lord?
  • Are we trusting the Lord to supply all our earthly needs?
  • Are we conscious of our need to be forgiven of all our sins? Are we also conscious of the need to forgive those who grieve us?


Let's do more than just offer prayers to God. Let us be challenged to cultivate a Prayer Life instead!
"AND DO NOT LEAD US INTO TEMPATATIONS/ TESTINGS" Luke 11:4
The word "temptations" may also be translated as "testings." Life on earth will always be fraught with problems. These problems test us in a number of ways. Among other things, our faith in God is tested. Our character will also be severely tested.
We cannot determine how we will be tested. However, we can pray that the testing will be tempered with mercy. We may pray that the Lord would allow us to escape severe testings.
It is natural to pray that we may be spared from testings. The Lord Jesus Himself prayed thus,
"Father, if it is Your will,
Take this cup from Me;
Nevertheless, not My will,
But Yours be done…"
 Luke 22:42


As we do not know the full will of God, and often He does not disclose or reveal His full will, it is perfectly all right to pray that we might be spared from testings.
Is it safe to pray thus? Yes, if we also bear in mind that we will accept God's will. If God's will is such that we must undergo testings, then so be it.
This prayer is therefore sent forth to the Lord to explore and to discover His will. This prayer is sent forth to the Father to plead His mercies as well.
INTERACTIVE PRAYING
The Lord Jesus offered this prayer three times consecutively. This was His way of praying interactively. He was expecting His Father to respond to Him.
His Father answered! Only One who has the closest relationship with the Father would be able to perceive His will! His Father's will was for Jesus to drink the cup of suffering placed in His hand.
Having ascertained God's will, Jesus submitted Himself to that revealed and confirmed will. Even as He prayed, He readied Himself to drink that bitter cup of suffering.
"BUT DELIVER US FROM THE EVIL ONE"
One of the most important things that the Lord Jesus sought to teach His Disciples was that they had a wicked enemy - here called, "The Evil One." (This is a better rendering of the Greek text. The translation , "Deliver us from evil" waters down the impact of what the Lord Jesus was teaching. He was teaching His Disciples to pray for deliverance from the wiles of the evil one, and not just the general presence of evil.)
The Lord Jesus Himself was not spared from severe testing by the Devil (Luke 4:1-13). He was aware of how power and deceit of the Devil. He urged His Disciples to pray that they may be spared from severe testings.
However, if severe testings cannot be avoided, they may pray that God would deliver them from the power of the evil one.
A case in point is found in Luke 22:31-32. The Lord Jesus told Peter plainly that Satan would severely test him. If possible, Satan would like to bring Peter down. He would at least, "sift him as wheat" (Luke 22:31).
Jesus then comforted Peter by saying, "But I have prayed for you" (Luke 22:32). Prayer was the Lord's means of protecting Peter from being destroyed by the devil.
Yes, Peter was not spared the pain and ignominy of denying the Lord Jesus Christ! However, we must also remember that Peter was fully restored and went on to become an outstanding disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ later.
A SPIRITUAL CONFLICT
The Apostle Paul wrote to warn the Ephesian Church of the fact that there was a spiritual conflict between the Lord's people and Satan. This conflict will exist till the Lord puts the Devil down permanently one day.
In the meanwhile, we must expect great spiritual battles in our lifetime. The way to find victory in this spiritual warfare is to learn how to pray effectively. Let us be deeply challenged to deepen our prayer life!

Surrendering everything to You Lord.

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Lord, what have i done? I must have done something to somehow.. dim the light in me and causing the surroundings to blind for a moment.. I have cause much misunderstandings & different perspective to the surroundings. Lord, i want to be wise in my actions & what i put across to people.. this has been a problem with me all along. All the time people misunderstands my intentions.. is it the cause of being too sociable or maybe i'm taking it fast? Why is it that people are so quick to judge just merely by seeing or reading or getting to know some rumors from another?


Well! From today onwards i am going to put up the armors of God and i am going to guard these against the devil. I am going to meditate on God's word daily, rooted into my brain.. that i may not be foolish to do the wrong things.. be it conciously or unconciously.. Lord please help me to be on track of what you have for me. What you have planned for me.. and what you intended me to be.. I know.. it is your promise.. You told me You're gonna do something great in me.. I admit that i underestimated the devil's evil plans to crush me slowly.. and that You've warned me too even before You start Your work in me.

Lord. Thank you for showing me how serious You are to me and how i might just taste death if unholiness resides in me.. I am so unworthy to the point of eternal condemnation, but still you choose to pick me up.. laid your hands on me.. cloth me.. feed me.. took care of me.. and slowly refining me.. Thank You so much Lord. Fill me with Your spirit once again. As i surrender everything that i am to You Lord. It's time to put up the Armor Of God & fight through this race marked out for me. JIA YOU.

My Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Your Name.
Your kingdom come.
Your will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give me this day my daily bread.
And forgive me my trespasses,
As i forgive those who trespass against me.
And lead me not into temptation,
But deliver me from evil.
For Yours is the kingdom,
and the power, and the glory,
for ever and ever.
 
Amen.

God, I'm holding on.

Posted: Wednesday, June 23, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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I am holding on.

Really TIGHT.

Though it seems very DRY.

Still, i will trust in You.

Even when my heart breaks into many pieces.

And it seems like it all dosen't meant to be.

Still i will trust in You.

I will bless the Lord all day long.

I am holding on.

A true faithful follower or just a proclaimer?

Posted: Tuesday, June 22, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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I'm one of these strugglers too.. Being a true follower... laying down everything just to follow... how many would do it? We can go to church every saturday or sunday.. to be super high.. to be very very HOLY.. to say Amen.. hallelujah.. and stuff..... but when the music dies down.. the service ends.. Here comes all the worldly nature of humans again.. Hatred... Anger... Pride.. Ego... all these... Of course we ain't perfect you see... Even those highly reputable Man in the Bible.. had their downfall times too.. what say we normal humans who dosen't even have the right to touch the sandals of the Lord..

How can we even come to the sanctuary to pray and worship with hearts full of hatred.. pride... ego... anger...? What are we potraying? Seriously if we were being asked to go out to evangelise... to really talk to anyone we see on the streets about God.. How many CHRISTIANS would really do that? When we can't even put down our pride... ego.... anger...? A common place.. In school.. how many would really let everyone know.. "Hey Guys! I'm Christian here!" And only to be so careful and afraid each and every steps they make... hopefully those who arn't Christian won't pick on their mistakes? I have so many such doubts in mind.. and i'm struggling with these stuffs too...

I don't understand how people can teach about God to others when they themselves show the other way round? It's quite shameful if the one they're teaching knows every shit about their teacher.... again.. of course we humans ain't perfect.. The problem with lots of Christians now adays.. They think they are "higher" then non christians.. since they are the Child of God.. and sub conciously think they can do everything themselves.. That very problem with Christians is that they want to PLAY GOD. They wan to play the role of God.. Then only to find themselves not being able to accomplish alot of stuffs.. and then runs away with a perception that maybe Christianity isn't meant for them.. We can't PLAY GOD. NOR CAN WE BE GOD!.... Of course we can be like God..

Now.. having thinking so much.. the ultimate question here is... "How many "CHRISTIANS" will really still proclaim they are "CHRISTIANS" when the time comes?" When the knife is held right at your neck. When Judgement Day is here. How many will then still be as high.. as holy.. as enthusiatic when they were in church every saturday and sunday jumping in service and praise? That's the ultimate question.. I say many will turn away to the Devil. Because all these while.. they knew about their hatred... anger... pride.. ego... and they never did anything about it with God's help. Instead they escape from their problems... and on the very day of Judgement they will ESCAPE too. Sounds familiar? If it is.. then start doing something.. it's not too late to start repenting... mending the relationships with people around you.. really understanding Christ and stuff..

It's either you repent or perish. We can be as holy as enthusiatic as high all we want all the days of our lives on earth... and we can always also deny ourselves and not taking Christ's advice on our own pride.. ego... anger.. hatred all these worldly stuffs... yea.. If we're such Christians.. Then don't even think of entering the Kingdom when the time has come! Shame on us!

Unless we humble ourselves down.. our PRIDE... EGO.. ANGER.. HATRED... all these nonsense.. which is hard for humans to do so.. if you say it's easy or you.. please slap yourself across your face hard and say "I'm Lying". I gotta start doing something.


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Nice Song!

Posted: by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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It's in the silences,
The words you never say,
I see it in your eyes,
Always starts the same way..

I see you look at me when you think I'm not aware,
You're searching for clues of just how deep my feelings are,
How do you prove the sky is blue, the ocean's wide?
All I know is what I feel when I look into your eyes...

I promise you from the bottom of my heart,
I will love you till death do us apart,
I promise you as a lover and a friend,
I will love you like I never love again,
With everything that I am..

I know you're hurting,
Right now you feel like you could never love again,
Now all I ask is for a chance,
To prove that I love you..

From the first day,
That I saw your smiling face,
You never knew how much you've captivated my heart..

When I asked you out,
You said "No" but I guess,
That you'd been hurt,
You thought that you'd never love again..

I deserve a try girl, just once,
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong,
You walked in,
You were so quick to judge,
But girl, he's nothing like me..

As time goes by,
You will get to know me,
A little more better,
Girl that's the way love goes..

And I know you're afraid,
To let your feelings show,
I understand,
But girl it's time to let go...

I'll never break your heart,
I'll never make you cry,
I'd rather die than live without you,
I'll give you all of me girl, and that's no lie..

Cause you won't be able to find another shorty like mine! =D

Radical Conferece 2010!

Posted: Friday, June 11, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Thank God so much for giving me the opportunity to use what i love doing to serve him. My cup's seriously overflowing i can't contain it... I don't know why God is doing so much in life now.. all i know.. is i am anticipating more and more of his works in me.

I made alot more new friends in church. It feels really great.. God knows other than church friends.. i aint got not much friends already.. God seems to be providing almost what i am needing.. I really don't know what to do to be able to fully thank God.. Beyond description....

God is doing so much in me.. that i literally broke down while worshiping... i just wanted to give Him the best worship i can to Him. Thank you Lord. Really.. never felt so great in my life before.. never felt that someone like me.. could do something for you God.

I am a rubble.. and You saw what's in me... instead of really Godly people.. You chose to use me.. a once dirty and screwed guy.. There is nothing greater compared to You.. God.. I Love You.. Show me more of your wonderful plans in my life Lord. Thank you so much...

Ha.. God.. ya know.. She totally rock my socks God.. hah.. You know.. i've never came across someone like her though.. You know it God.. You know who i'm talking about.. You know it all Lord. But i am not gonna think much about it God.. Cause it's like she is You know... And i am like You know... haha..I still don't have any faith that i'd get the girl i really like. Ha... Anyway.. thank you God... really.. very much.. i am overwhelmed. =D

What i mean by MUSIC helps.

Posted: Tuesday, April 20, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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What Faith Can Do.. is one excellent song which helps an individual alot.. sometimes  we just gotta keep the faith and hold on to the promise God gave us...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tKwbeFf4AI&NR=1

ORD LO!!

Posted: Friday, April 9, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Oh yea man!! The time has finally come! I'm gonna collect my PINK IC tomorrow! Oh wait.. now is like past 12am already.. so it's today!!!! wahahha.. I'm predicting that i won't be able to sleep tonight! Oh gosh!!! Wahahha! What a happy and a never forgetting day it will be! Watching Bruce Mighty now on my computer.. gonna bath.. and sleep.. and... Here i go!!

ORD LO!!!!

8 more days to my freedom niggas!

Posted: Wednesday, March 31, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Woohoo.. Finally the moment is so so... bright... i'm reaching it.. after 2 years of fun... laughters... pain.. sweats.. bloods.. i won't really say it's a waste of time.. ok.. BMT wasn't a waste of time.. but it's the vocation you're being posted after BMT.. maybe mine is really a total waste of time then.. haha..

Ok.. make it fair.. i learned how to deal with different people? Lead a group? Learned fishing?  It's really fun!! The fishes there are seriously shit fish man... They literally eat anything.. even with a piece of bread... i could hook a fish up.. well.. i'm not trying to being a saddist here.. but it's seriously fun and exciting when the long wait is over and suddenly you feel a bite! And as you pull.. you feel the struggle!! You get so excited to see what you've caught... it's just so fun!

8 more days to my freedom... man.. this is the time... the moment... where every man looks forward to! Looking back at the times where we first used to start off as a young chap... who knows nothing.. but... games? Haha... enlist and handle guns.. grenades... it's like Counter-Strike come alive! Or Black Shot? hahah.. Coolness.. You learn to see things differently in every different perspective... you get to think about your future... plan it... unfortunately some ingrates still never learn even after enlisting... but well.. life isn't it? Haha...

I'm just thankful to God... who held me through these 2 years... providing for me.. Right now.. i'm on a job hunting spree... I'm trying to look for a full time job that does a 5 day/week... just don't touch my saturdays!! Cause if my saturdays are also burned.. that i see no point in living my life fruitfully anymore.. It's the only day.. where i get to come in contact with real friends... brothers and sisters.. a day to relieve stress.. haha..

Yea.. i love my brothers and sisters in church!! You guys.. are just so awesome.. i couldn't ask for more that i pray you guys will always be strong!!! =D

Beaten down by the reality of this world.

Posted: Tuesday, March 30, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Lord, you saw that? Heard that? Felt that? I'm sure you do... cause before i felt that, you have already felt that thousand years ago. Although they didn't say it straight forward... but i could tell the mockery behind their sentences... I know i have screwed my life up, I know my education status is like the lowest of the lowest.. and the things i've done to screw myself up in my younger days has to be paid with hefty prices in the future and now...

Lord.. i feel so beaten down by the reality in this earth, no education status, no good reputation, no wealth, no spiritual.. screwed my own body up.. what more worse things are going to happen to me Lord? Are you gonna just sit and look? Lord, i don't mean disrespect Lord, but Lord if there is anything you want me to do, please.. show me Lord... show me the plans you have for me.. Cause if you don't.. then i am no difference to those who just proclaim in the name of Yours Lord jesus Christ but do the bad ways like before.

I can feel and see these giants, surrounding me from the ends of the earth, the presence and the future, waiting desperately just to devour me, to tear me apart, to seperate me from You Lord. And i can't do anything! I fake a smile everyday to show things looks right within me, but only You know that deep down inside i am so empty, i am so afraid, i don't know where i'll be at the next moment, and what's worse.. i can't even see you Lord, I can't feel you, it feels like you're gone.. but knowing the fact that you will always be there and nothing i can do to make you leave me..

Yes all these i know.. but Lord.. you know my needs.. you know it all... till the last breath i take from this planet, i am opening my arms wide... praying and hoping to see the plans you have for me... Please Lord, i can make no more mistakes in my life.. Lord... Please.. i pray.. i beg.. that you show me something Lord, If there is something you want me to do, show me how to do it Lord.. show me the plans Lord.. Won't you?


And Lord, you had better see this.

" There is nothing i can do to make you leave me" Right? Right?


Let me tell you Lord.


> THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO MAKE ME LEAVE YOU TOO. <

iPhone Day

Posted: Sunday, March 14, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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What a great day yesterday... Went down with lifegroup mates to IT fair... I got my iPhone with Jeremy & wei shun... Haha.. All three of us were in smiles! We just couldn't stop tapping on our screen.. White's nicer eh? Haha cause I got black while the both of them got white.. And I literally heard this mother sayin out loud " black colour not nice!! White nicer!!! " haha.. Na.. I'd prefer black colour.. It looks more classy and it dosen't get too obvious if there's marks on it. Anyway gotta thank ying ying alot! She paid for the phone first. But I'm paying her back later... I was just short of about 100 bucks.. She tempted me to get the 32 GB one!! Haha.. And she successfully tempted weishun to get the 32 GB too.. Haha!! Had a great day!! Beginning to love them more & more!! Now we're off to get some nice clothing for our phones!!! :D

What a day..

Posted: Thursday, March 4, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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I'm gonna sleep in the living room in another few days time... after all my sister's nonsense, i've persuaded her to come back home and stay rather then creating trouble outside.. but i've to sacrifice my room for her.. actually not sacrifice.. but.. well.. what to do... i'd rather she's back home.. then creating problems outside.. and in the end.. Dad has to clean up her shit..

I know dad only wants to see all his children everyday.. i know he works hard and comes back home tired.. but still can't see all his childrens... so i've decided to let my sis sleep in my room as i'll move out to the living room then.. don't wanna share room with my brother too.. i know he needs his privacy.. it's ok.. if i can sacrifice my privacy and convenience in my own cosy room up to let my dad be rest assured he'll see all his children everyday.. this little sacrifice is nothing at all..

As long as my dad's happy.. i'll be happy.. as long as one day i can do my dad proud.. that's enough.. i just want a peaceful family even though my biological mum may not be with us.. but i am blessed to have a stepmum. Thank God for her..

Lord, you know my needs.. you know my situation... you hold my everything in the palm of your hands.. you can shut doors that no one can open and you can open doors that no one can shut.. you hear my cry.. you hear my prayer.. i'm sorry for all i've done to hurt you... but Lord.. use me... use me to bring my family to you.. cause it's only through you.. i know my family will be in peace... Lord would you show me your ways.. show me how to do it Lord.. show me...

I know YOU are there... always there... when things go right.. i'll praise you.. and even if things go wrong.. still i will praise you.. Lord give me the strength to prepare my crops in the fields.. and when it's time and YOU send the rain.. i will be there to receive your blessings Lord.................................... shalom.

Can ya feel the mood niga!?

Posted: Tuesday, March 2, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Yea man!! Can ya feel it? Tell me baby! Can ya seriously feel it?! Cause i'm feeling it... less than 30 days!! I'll be out!! Out of the cage!!! Yea man!! WOo LalaLAA!!!!! =D

"Mum, I Love You"

Posted: Saturday, February 13, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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That saturday.. when pastor preached about family and stuffs... was all ok until when he mentioned that he met this girl.. and this girl could vividly remember how her mum left her when she was young.. that moment of time.. that moment of pain.. she could all still remember those scenes till this very age.. and it's so coincidentally.. happens to be like my situation too...

When i was young.. at about 6 years old.. things were getting so bad at home.. every night my grandpa would come up to scold my dad and stuff.. being a small boy at that time i didn't know what was going on.. just knowing that everyday was like... WAR.

Then one day.. when my mum left us.. my parents filed for a divorce.. that very day... i remember gripping onto the door grill with my siblings.. helplessly crying out loud and yelling.. begging and pleading my mum to come back home... but i could do nothing at all... only to see her back.. with her luggage and everything with her... as she slowly makes her way off.. from then on.. i've never seen my mum anymore... up till now.. i still remember how that gloomy day looked like... dad was almost drunk all the time... and i don't really understand or know what the problem was... only knowing that my dad worked so so so hard going through all the pain and tears to bring me & my siblings up.

Then Pastor told us to write to our parents a card.. as Mother's Day is like the next day... this is what i wrote on the card...



" My Dearest Mum,

  If i had the chance to ever see you again, i'd tell you everything that has happen after you left and how dad & the family is doing! Mum.. i never once blamed you for leaving us though it was really a heartpain to see you go but i could only cry helplessly behind the grills of the door watching you leave every step you take... i just wished things was better at that time.. i wished such things wouldn't have happened to our family.. Mum.. if i can ever see you again.. i hope i'll be able to tell you just how much i've missed you and how much i loved you. Since i was young i didn't really know what love was all about. I would wanna let you hear these words coming from my mouth.. I hope we would be reconciled.. though it's been more then 10 years already... Also Mum.. i really want to thank you so much ... that you were so great to have bore me in your tummy! I know i have the best Mum in the world... Thank you for being so strong to the point even when you're leaving us. Mum.. i appreciate it. I Love You. "

 - SYLVESTER -


That was what i wrote on the card.. although i know in my heart... my mum will never get to see this card.. but i just felt like writing it down.. sometimes when i see a family outside... being together as one.. the love and the bond.. just made me question myself & God... " why couldn't i have that? " Why must i go through so much shit? " why can't i be like any other child that goes to school, study and get good grades to make thier parents proud?"  Well.. i guess things happen for a reason though... And i really think people out there who have a proper family should really appreciate their parents and honour them. Because they are just so lucky enough to have a proper family then a broken down one.. so PEOPLE !! CHERISH YOUR PARENTS! :D

Back to BS!

Posted: Thursday, February 4, 2010 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Arh.. crap.... i still think BS is the better choice when it comes to blogging.... I wonder if there are readers though.. It's ok! Anyway... i'm left with left then 70 days to my freedom! I've come a long way! Yea!! I hope i get taken out of duty next month so that i can attend church on saturdays..
Well.. i may not be any ideal christian people may expect or perceive.. that's because i'm still learning like any others do. What God sees in me is what the world will never see. In the end.. it was never me and the world though.. but it's about me and God.
I'm blogging now at this time when it's like 3.21am!?! I seriously can't sleep.. when i've to get up by 5 to get prepared to go to that argh!!! The name and place just pisses me off.. CAMP. Haha.. But well.. like i said 7o more days.. I'll just pull through it then.. 
OK.. guess i'll go wash up my bowl of finished curry noodles. =D



Itouch 3rd Gen 64gb!

Posted: Sunday, November 8, 2009 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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Oops.. It's been AGES since i last updated blog... anyways.. i'm so looking forward to my ORD day! Where i get out of NS and start to pursue my dreams.. haha.. i realise i can't get into NAFA already.. cause at least i need a grade 8 to get in though... so too bad for my NAFA goal.. 

I guess i'll go towards plan B then! Go back to ITE.. get a qualifying cert and advance to Polytechnic then! haha.. I got a new ITOUCH!! Haha.. latest Generation... I Touch 3rd Gen 64GB!!!! haha..

Okays.. my eyes are like dying... i need to sleep... gotta  get up at 6 later to drag myself back to that undesirable camp. haha.. NIGHTS. =D

It's Raning...

Posted: Sunday, August 23, 2009 by ♫ یүζvεیтεя in
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It's 1:15am now... had a great day with church peeps... today's CG was quite a big group.. haha.. glad to see it.. cause it just shows that everyone's serious! Haha.. worship was wonderful.. as i stand behind of everyone.. i see something different.. it's so spectacular.. you'll feel God's love..

Just went for another session of lasering few days ago.. was so painful.. and now it's having bubbles on it.. cause i told the person doing for me to adjust the intensity higher.. so that it penetrates deeper and disperse the ink hopefully my tattoos might be gone faster.. i could see some significance in the inks.. some even faded completely.. GONE.  guess it's because that part must be just up in the skin.. so it was easier for it to vanish.

God.. i really pray you'd use your hands to do miracle through the lasering.. i really pray you'd make it vanish faster.. since i won't wake up to see my tattoos COMPLETELY GONE the next day... Now that my SHAPE is being shaped out.. i guess i should find ways to execute it.. haha

Andy asked today if God layed down a dream for me before... i actually had this dream before.. to find people who play music.. and we compose our own inspirational christian songs.. that was what i really would like to do.. my dream... cause.. music seriously does wonders.. it is able to inspire you to do something.. Music rocks!

It's raining outside now.. as lightning flashes lights up my room.. i shall kiss myself good night and turn in.. sleep tight. GOOD NIGHT.  =D