♫ Sylvester

Lord, you saw that? Heard that? Felt that? I'm sure you do... cause before i felt that, you have already felt that thousand years ago. Although they didn't say it straight forward... but i could tell the mockery behind their sentences... I know i have screwed my life up, I know my education status is like the lowest of the lowest.. and the things i've done to screw myself up in my younger days has to be paid with hefty prices in the future and now...

Lord.. i feel so beaten down by the reality in this earth, no education status, no good reputation, no wealth, no spiritual.. screwed my own body up.. what more worse things are going to happen to me Lord? Are you gonna just sit and look? Lord, i don't mean disrespect Lord, but Lord if there is anything you want me to do, please.. show me Lord... show me the plans you have for me.. Cause if you don't.. then i am no difference to those who just proclaim in the name of Yours Lord jesus Christ but do the bad ways like before.

I can feel and see these giants, surrounding me from the ends of the earth, the presence and the future, waiting desperately just to devour me, to tear me apart, to seperate me from You Lord. And i can't do anything! I fake a smile everyday to show things looks right within me, but only You know that deep down inside i am so empty, i am so afraid, i don't know where i'll be at the next moment, and what's worse.. i can't even see you Lord, I can't feel you, it feels like you're gone.. but knowing the fact that you will always be there and nothing i can do to make you leave me..

Yes all these i know.. but Lord.. you know my needs.. you know it all... till the last breath i take from this planet, i am opening my arms wide... praying and hoping to see the plans you have for me... Please Lord, i can make no more mistakes in my life.. Lord... Please.. i pray.. i beg.. that you show me something Lord, If there is something you want me to do, show me how to do it Lord.. show me the plans Lord.. Won't you?


And Lord, you had better see this.

" There is nothing i can do to make you leave me" Right? Right?


Let me tell you Lord.


> THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO MAKE ME LEAVE YOU TOO. <