♫ Sylvester

I'm one of these strugglers too.. Being a true follower... laying down everything just to follow... how many would do it? We can go to church every saturday or sunday.. to be super high.. to be very very HOLY.. to say Amen.. hallelujah.. and stuff..... but when the music dies down.. the service ends.. Here comes all the worldly nature of humans again.. Hatred... Anger... Pride.. Ego... all these... Of course we ain't perfect you see... Even those highly reputable Man in the Bible.. had their downfall times too.. what say we normal humans who dosen't even have the right to touch the sandals of the Lord..

How can we even come to the sanctuary to pray and worship with hearts full of hatred.. pride... ego... anger...? What are we potraying? Seriously if we were being asked to go out to evangelise... to really talk to anyone we see on the streets about God.. How many CHRISTIANS would really do that? When we can't even put down our pride... ego.... anger...? A common place.. In school.. how many would really let everyone know.. "Hey Guys! I'm Christian here!" And only to be so careful and afraid each and every steps they make... hopefully those who arn't Christian won't pick on their mistakes? I have so many such doubts in mind.. and i'm struggling with these stuffs too...

I don't understand how people can teach about God to others when they themselves show the other way round? It's quite shameful if the one they're teaching knows every shit about their teacher.... again.. of course we humans ain't perfect.. The problem with lots of Christians now adays.. They think they are "higher" then non christians.. since they are the Child of God.. and sub conciously think they can do everything themselves.. That very problem with Christians is that they want to PLAY GOD. They wan to play the role of God.. Then only to find themselves not being able to accomplish alot of stuffs.. and then runs away with a perception that maybe Christianity isn't meant for them.. We can't PLAY GOD. NOR CAN WE BE GOD!.... Of course we can be like God..

Now.. having thinking so much.. the ultimate question here is... "How many "CHRISTIANS" will really still proclaim they are "CHRISTIANS" when the time comes?" When the knife is held right at your neck. When Judgement Day is here. How many will then still be as high.. as holy.. as enthusiatic when they were in church every saturday and sunday jumping in service and praise? That's the ultimate question.. I say many will turn away to the Devil. Because all these while.. they knew about their hatred... anger... pride.. ego... and they never did anything about it with God's help. Instead they escape from their problems... and on the very day of Judgement they will ESCAPE too. Sounds familiar? If it is.. then start doing something.. it's not too late to start repenting... mending the relationships with people around you.. really understanding Christ and stuff..

It's either you repent or perish. We can be as holy as enthusiatic as high all we want all the days of our lives on earth... and we can always also deny ourselves and not taking Christ's advice on our own pride.. ego... anger.. hatred all these worldly stuffs... yea.. If we're such Christians.. Then don't even think of entering the Kingdom when the time has come! Shame on us!

Unless we humble ourselves down.. our PRIDE... EGO.. ANGER.. HATRED... all these nonsense.. which is hard for humans to do so.. if you say it's easy or you.. please slap yourself across your face hard and say "I'm Lying". I gotta start doing something.