♫ Sylvester

Even when we are weak in faith, God still remains faithful. Don't stray too long away from God. You'd just lose out alot... really alot.

Sometimes people just don't treasure who God puts them with. The people around you are there for a reason. Don't be complacent. Don't be proud. You're still lucky when there are people including you in their lives and involving you. If you can't give anything back, at least be thankful.

Don't try to vent your anger also on your brothers and sisters, you never know how much you'd hurt them. But be thankful, because even how hurting your words can be, they still remain FAITHFUL. Just like God. Everyone goes through hard times, but those are the times that proves your character and your faith in God. Everyone will be able to see it. There is no point in trying to hide it all playing it cool. Save it.

Think about it. You either be cold or hot. You're in or out. And God sees it. You ought to be the one to be humble. Not using your anger to say hurting words to people who are just carrying out their duties and even having concern for you.

But afterall,
Even when you're weak in Love. Your brothers and sisters still remain loving.
Even when you're weak in Faith, God still remians Faithful.

No doubt, there are lots of distractions in life nowadays to distract us from knowing where God is going in our lives, what He's trying to do.. He is faithful that even when we are distracted, He never fails to carry on the plan He has in our lives, but if we don't pick ourselves up in time, we are seriously just gonna lose out alot & alot.

For me, i was so distracted that i hardly spent time on what i loved to do. Until God calls me, i realised i wasn't up to the calling, i wasn't prepared, i wasn't good enough. I hate it, because i couldn't put up a good one for God when he gives the chance to. If i had used the time wisely working on the things i love doing, that brings glory to God, i would have put up a great show when He calls.

Although, whether it's good or not, i know God is still fine with it. But in ourselves we know we want to give the best to God when he gives the chance to. It is only God who gives us the chance to relive our dreams & passions under no cost at all. A love so great, no one can ever comprehend. So well, each and everytime we get distracted, seriously gotta find that strength to pull ourselves up. Don't say "Ai ya, it's really hard lei".. we all know it's hard, but it'll be harder when things get even worse if you get deeper and deeper!

It's just like the favourite dramas you love watching. But, too bad.. in God, you miss this or that particular important episode of His plan for you, it aint coming back, you lose it forever.. so. what's the wisest choice? I'd choose to know where God is taking me to.

Yea.. it's been a long time since i last blogged.. have been busy lately with YOG work.. Things are all coming in.. from the stationary to food. The game's gonna start like tomorrow.. Good thing about it is.. i foresee that my OT payment's gona be huge! Hope i can get both my guitar and computer! Yea.. stupid com.. it died on me weeks ago.. leaving me so bored.

Republic Poly's cheerleading Rexaz's not bad. Seen their rehearsel and stuff.. haha.. What's bad is that i won't be able to go to church maybe for this month. Because YOG is so so busy.. i hardly even have time for anything else.

Birthday just went pass like 2 days ago.. and i'm 21 already.. Reflected on the past years.. really did wasted alot of time.. and i'm really dying to get back to school. But when i get back to school.. i'm wondering how to survice without money.. arghh..

But oh well! You know something? My God is Great. He does things even when you think there's no way out.. even when it seems with no hope anymore. That is why there is a God. When there seems no path to take.. that's when His is the only One Way. =D

Seriously, my job is like.. FOR NOW freakingly slack like crazy. Come at about 10 goes off at about 2 if there is no stock coming in. Lucky i am being posted to town area.. nothing on can just go  roam around. At days, don't even have to go! And i'm still paid.. If only this job is a permanent one! Today & tomorrow don't need to go! What am i gonna do at home... haha..

Gonna start deciding and confirming which course i'm going to get enrolled in for next year already. ITE College WEST! Another enormous ITE! HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Lord, thank you so much for this time of a lesson learnt harshly, i was really dumb to try to do things my way again only to get myself in a situation that traps me up and made me negative all this time. Without You Lord, nothing i do is gonna turn out well..

I'm deciding for very long whether to start from ITE or take up private.. The problem is money.. if i have money... i'd surely take up private or even go overseas to study.. Life's hard.. but it's ok.. i serve a great God.. and great things happens.


Of course.. if you know me.. i like the arts industry.. like music... composing... playing.. performing.. dancing.. related.. so i have plan A here..




PLAN A

• Enroll into ITE CHUA CHU KANG next year 2011. Taking up Audio & Video Technology. Anyway.. the new ITE in Chua Chu Kang is like HUGE. It's another version of ITE College East Simei. WOOTS
  
• Gotta do really well to secure a GPA more than 3.5 to be able to advance to Polytechnic.
• Once i get the required GPA, I'll take up Sonic Arts in Republic Polytechnic.
• And hopefully, i'd be praying.. to major in music related course in University. And only God.. can make it happen.

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness 


So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

One night i had a dream. I dreamt I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. 


For each scene i noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to mine and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of my life. 


This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it. 


"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way, however I noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed you most you would leave me." 


The Lord replied, "my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you." 

Thank You Lord. 

It is important that we review "The Lord's Prayer" from time to time, for a number of reasons

• As a check - to see if we are praying aright.
• As motivation to learn how to pray at a deeper level.
• As a guide , so that our prayers to the Lord are more organized.

REVIEWING OUR PRAYER LIFE

• Is our relationship with God as Father deeper and more meaningful as we pray to Him each day?
• Are we more conscious of how we should hallow or sanctify our Father's Holy Name, even as we pray?
• Are we praying for things related to the Lord's Kingdom?
• Are we more submissive to the Will of the Lord?
• Are we trusting the Lord to supply all our earthly needs?
• Are we conscious of our need to be forgiven of all our sins? Are we also conscious of the need to forgive those who grieve us?

Let's do more than just offer prayers to God. Let us be challenged to cultivate a Prayer Life instead!


"AND DO NOT LEAD US INTO TEMPATATIONS/ TESTINGS" Luke 11:4
The word "temptations" may also be translated as "testings." Life on earth will always be fraught with problems. These problems test us in a number of ways. Among other things, our faith in God is tested. Our character will also be severely tested.
We cannot determine how we will be tested. However, we can pray that the testing will be tempered with mercy. We may pray that the Lord would allow us to escape severe testings.
It is natural to pray that we may be spared from testings. The Lord Jesus Himself prayed thus,

"Father, if it is Your will,
Take this cup from Me;
Nevertheless, not My will,
But Yours be done…"
Luke 22:42

As we do not know the full will of God, and often He does not disclose or reveal His full will, it is perfectly all right to pray that we might be spared from testings.
Is it safe to pray thus? Yes, if we also bear in mind that we will accept God's will. If God's will is such that we must undergo testings, then so be it.
This prayer is therefore sent forth to the Lord to explore and to discover His will. This prayer is sent forth to the Father to plead His mercies as well.


INTERACTIVE PRAYING
The Lord Jesus offered this prayer three times consecutively. This was His way of praying interactively. He was expecting His Father to respond to Him.
His Father answered! Only One who has the closest relationship with the Father would be able to perceive His will! His Father's will was for Jesus to drink the cup of suffering placed in His hand.
Having ascertained God's will, Jesus submitted Himself to that revealed and confirmed will. Even as He prayed, He readied Himself to drink that bitter cup of suffering.


"BUT DELIVER US FROM THE EVIL ONE"
One of the most important things that the Lord Jesus sought to teach His Disciples was that they had a wicked enemy - here called, "The Evil One." (This is a better rendering of the Greek text. The translation , "Deliver us from evil" waters down the impact of what the Lord Jesus was teaching. He was teaching His Disciples to pray for deliverance from the wiles of the evil one, and not just the general presence of evil.)
The Lord Jesus Himself was not spared from severe testing by the Devil (Luke 4:1-13). He was aware of how power and deceit of the Devil. He urged His Disciples to pray that they may be spared from severe testings.
However, if severe testings cannot be avoided, they may pray that God would deliver them from the power of the evil one.
A case in point is found in Luke 22:31-32. The Lord Jesus told Peter plainly that Satan would severely test him. If possible, Satan would like to bring Peter down. He would at least, "sift him as wheat" (Luke 22:31).
Jesus then comforted Peter by saying, "But I have prayed for you" (Luke 22:32). Prayer was the Lord's means of protecting Peter from being destroyed by the devil.
Yes, Peter was not spared the pain and ignominy of denying the Lord Jesus Christ! However, we must also remember that Peter was fully restored and went on to become an outstanding disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ later.


A SPIRITUAL CONFLICT
The Apostle Paul wrote to warn the Ephesian Church of the fact that there was a spiritual conflict between the Lord's people and Satan. This conflict will exist till the Lord puts the Devil down permanently one day.
In the meanwhile, we must expect great spiritual battles in our lifetime. The way to find victory in this spiritual warfare is to learn how to pray effectively. Let us be deeply challenged to deepen our prayer life!

Lord, what have i done? I must have done something to somehow.. dim the light in me and causing the surroundings to blind for a moment.. I have cause much misunderstandings & different perspective to the surroundings. Lord, i want to be wise in my actions & what i put across to people.. this has been a problem with me all along. All the time people misunderstands my intentions.. is it the cause of being too sociable or maybe i'm taking it fast? Why is it that people are so quick to judge just merely by seeing or reading or getting to know some rumors from another?

I am holding on.

Really TIGHT.

Though it seems very DRY.

Still, i will trust in You.

Even when my heart breaks into many pieces.

And it seems like it all dosen't meant to be.

Still i will trust in You.

I will bless the Lord all day long.

I am holding on.

I'm one of these strugglers too.. Being a true follower... laying down everything just to follow... how many would do it? We can go to church every saturday or sunday.. to be super high.. to be very very HOLY.. to say Amen.. hallelujah.. and stuff..... but when the music dies down.. the service ends.. Here comes all the worldly nature of humans again.. Hatred... Anger... Pride.. Ego... all these... Of course we ain't perfect you see... Even those highly reputable Man in the Bible.. had their downfall times too.. what say we normal humans who dosen't even have the right to touch the sandals of the Lord..

How can we even come to the sanctuary to pray and worship with hearts full of hatred.. pride... ego... anger...? What are we potraying? Seriously if we were being asked to go out to evangelise... to really talk to anyone we see on the streets about God.. How many CHRISTIANS would really do that? When we can't even put down our pride... ego.... anger...? A common place.. In school.. how many would really let everyone know.. "Hey Guys! I'm Christian here!" And only to be so careful and afraid each and every steps they make... hopefully those who arn't Christian won't pick on their mistakes? I have so many such doubts in mind.. and i'm struggling with these stuffs too...

I don't understand how people can teach about God to others when they themselves show the other way round? It's quite shameful if the one they're teaching knows every shit about their teacher.... again.. of course we humans ain't perfect.. The problem with lots of Christians now adays.. They think they are "higher" then non christians.. since they are the Child of God.. and sub conciously think they can do everything themselves.. That very problem with Christians is that they want to PLAY GOD. They wan to play the role of God.. Then only to find themselves not being able to accomplish alot of stuffs.. and then runs away with a perception that maybe Christianity isn't meant for them.. We can't PLAY GOD. NOR CAN WE BE GOD!.... Of course we can be like God..

Now.. having thinking so much.. the ultimate question here is... "How many "CHRISTIANS" will really still proclaim they are "CHRISTIANS" when the time comes?" When the knife is held right at your neck. When Judgement Day is here. How many will then still be as high.. as holy.. as enthusiatic when they were in church every saturday and sunday jumping in service and praise? That's the ultimate question.. I say many will turn away to the Devil. Because all these while.. they knew about their hatred... anger... pride.. ego... and they never did anything about it with God's help. Instead they escape from their problems... and on the very day of Judgement they will ESCAPE too. Sounds familiar? If it is.. then start doing something.. it's not too late to start repenting... mending the relationships with people around you.. really understanding Christ and stuff..

It's either you repent or perish. We can be as holy as enthusiatic as high all we want all the days of our lives on earth... and we can always also deny ourselves and not taking Christ's advice on our own pride.. ego... anger.. hatred all these worldly stuffs... yea.. If we're such Christians.. Then don't even think of entering the Kingdom when the time has come! Shame on us!

Unless we humble ourselves down.. our PRIDE... EGO.. ANGER.. HATRED... all these nonsense.. which is hard for humans to do so.. if you say it's easy or you.. please slap yourself across your face hard and say "I'm Lying". I gotta start doing something.

It's in the silences,
The words you never say,
I see it in your eyes,
Always starts the same way..

I see you look at me when you think I'm not aware,
You're searching for clues of just how deep my feelings are,
How do you prove the sky is blue, the ocean's wide?
All I know is what I feel when I look into your eyes...

I promise you from the bottom of my heart,
I will love you till death do us apart,
I promise you as a lover and a friend,
I will love you like I never love again,
With everything that I am..

I know you're hurting,
Right now you feel like you could never love again,
Now all I ask is for a chance,
To prove that I love you..

From the first day,
That I saw your smiling face,
You never knew how much you've captivated my heart..

When I asked you out,
You said "No" but I guess,
That you'd been hurt,
You thought that you'd never love again..

I deserve a try girl, just once,
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong,
You walked in,
You were so quick to judge,
But girl, he's nothing like me..

As time goes by,
You will get to know me,
A little more better,
Girl that's the way love goes..

And I know you're afraid,
To let your feelings show,
I understand,
But girl it's time to let go...

I'll never break your heart,
I'll never make you cry,
I'd rather die than live without you,
I'll give you all of me girl, and that's no lie..

Cause you won't be able to find another shorty like mine! =D

Thank God so much for giving me the opportunity to use what i love doing to serve him. My cup's seriously overflowing i can't contain it... I don't know why God is doing so much in life now.. all i know.. is i am anticipating more and more of his works in me.

I made alot more new friends in church. It feels really great.. God knows other than church friends.. i aint got not much friends already.. God seems to be providing almost what i am needing.. I really don't know what to do to be able to fully thank God.. Beyond description....

God is doing so much in me.. that i literally broke down while worshiping... i just wanted to give Him the best worship i can to Him. Thank you Lord. Really.. never felt so great in my life before.. never felt that someone like me.. could do something for you God.

I am a rubble.. and You saw what's in me... instead of really Godly people.. You chose to use me.. a once dirty and screwed guy.. There is nothing greater compared to You.. God.. I Love You.. Show me more of your wonderful plans in my life Lord. Thank you so much...

Ha.. God.. ya know.. She totally rock my socks God.. hah.. You know.. i've never came across someone like her though.. You know it God.. You know who i'm talking about.. You know it all Lord. But i am not gonna think much about it God.. Cause it's like she is You know... And i am like You know... haha..I still don't have any faith that i'd get the girl i really like. Ha... Anyway.. thank you God... really.. very much.. i am overwhelmed. =D

What Faith Can Do.. is one excellent song which helps an individual alot.. sometimes  we just gotta keep the faith and hold on to the promise God gave us...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tKwbeFf4AI&NR=1

Oh yea man!! The time has finally come! I'm gonna collect my PINK IC tomorrow! Oh wait.. now is like past 12am already.. so it's today!!!! wahahha.. I'm predicting that i won't be able to sleep tonight! Oh gosh!!! Wahahha! What a happy and a never forgetting day it will be! Watching Bruce Mighty now on my computer.. gonna bath.. and sleep.. and... Here i go!!

ORD LO!!!!

Woohoo.. Finally the moment is so so... bright... i'm reaching it.. after 2 years of fun... laughters... pain.. sweats.. bloods.. i won't really say it's a waste of time.. ok.. BMT wasn't a waste of time.. but it's the vocation you're being posted after BMT.. maybe mine is really a total waste of time then.. haha..

Ok.. make it fair.. i learned how to deal with different people? Lead a group? Learned fishing?  It's really fun!! The fishes there are seriously shit fish man... They literally eat anything.. even with a piece of bread... i could hook a fish up.. well.. i'm not trying to being a saddist here.. but it's seriously fun and exciting when the long wait is over and suddenly you feel a bite! And as you pull.. you feel the struggle!! You get so excited to see what you've caught... it's just so fun!

8 more days to my freedom... man.. this is the time... the moment... where every man looks forward to! Looking back at the times where we first used to start off as a young chap... who knows nothing.. but... games? Haha... enlist and handle guns.. grenades... it's like Counter-Strike come alive! Or Black Shot? hahah.. Coolness.. You learn to see things differently in every different perspective... you get to think about your future... plan it... unfortunately some ingrates still never learn even after enlisting... but well.. life isn't it? Haha...

I'm just thankful to God... who held me through these 2 years... providing for me.. Right now.. i'm on a job hunting spree... I'm trying to look for a full time job that does a 5 day/week... just don't touch my saturdays!! Cause if my saturdays are also burned.. that i see no point in living my life fruitfully anymore.. It's the only day.. where i get to come in contact with real friends... brothers and sisters.. a day to relieve stress.. haha..

Yea.. i love my brothers and sisters in church!! You guys.. are just so awesome.. i couldn't ask for more that i pray you guys will always be strong!!! =D

Lord, you saw that? Heard that? Felt that? I'm sure you do... cause before i felt that, you have already felt that thousand years ago. Although they didn't say it straight forward... but i could tell the mockery behind their sentences... I know i have screwed my life up, I know my education status is like the lowest of the lowest.. and the things i've done to screw myself up in my younger days has to be paid with hefty prices in the future and now...

Lord.. i feel so beaten down by the reality in this earth, no education status, no good reputation, no wealth, no spiritual.. screwed my own body up.. what more worse things are going to happen to me Lord? Are you gonna just sit and look? Lord, i don't mean disrespect Lord, but Lord if there is anything you want me to do, please.. show me Lord... show me the plans you have for me.. Cause if you don't.. then i am no difference to those who just proclaim in the name of Yours Lord jesus Christ but do the bad ways like before.

I can feel and see these giants, surrounding me from the ends of the earth, the presence and the future, waiting desperately just to devour me, to tear me apart, to seperate me from You Lord. And i can't do anything! I fake a smile everyday to show things looks right within me, but only You know that deep down inside i am so empty, i am so afraid, i don't know where i'll be at the next moment, and what's worse.. i can't even see you Lord, I can't feel you, it feels like you're gone.. but knowing the fact that you will always be there and nothing i can do to make you leave me..

Yes all these i know.. but Lord.. you know my needs.. you know it all... till the last breath i take from this planet, i am opening my arms wide... praying and hoping to see the plans you have for me... Please Lord, i can make no more mistakes in my life.. Lord... Please.. i pray.. i beg.. that you show me something Lord, If there is something you want me to do, show me how to do it Lord.. show me the plans Lord.. Won't you?


And Lord, you had better see this.

" There is nothing i can do to make you leave me" Right? Right?


Let me tell you Lord.


> THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO MAKE ME LEAVE YOU TOO. <

What a great day yesterday... Went down with lifegroup mates to IT fair... I got my iPhone with Jeremy & wei shun... Haha.. All three of us were in smiles! We just couldn't stop tapping on our screen.. White's nicer eh? Haha cause I got black while the both of them got white.. And I literally heard this mother sayin out loud " black colour not nice!! White nicer!!! " haha.. Na.. I'd prefer black colour.. It looks more classy and it dosen't get too obvious if there's marks on it. Anyway gotta thank ying ying alot! She paid for the phone first. But I'm paying her back later... I was just short of about 100 bucks.. She tempted me to get the 32 GB one!! Haha.. And she successfully tempted weishun to get the 32 GB too.. Haha!! Had a great day!! Beginning to love them more & more!! Now we're off to get some nice clothing for our phones!!! :D

I'm gonna sleep in the living room in another few days time... after all my sister's nonsense, i've persuaded her to come back home and stay rather then creating trouble outside.. but i've to sacrifice my room for her.. actually not sacrifice.. but.. well.. what to do... i'd rather she's back home.. then creating problems outside.. and in the end.. Dad has to clean up her shit..

I know dad only wants to see all his children everyday.. i know he works hard and comes back home tired.. but still can't see all his childrens... so i've decided to let my sis sleep in my room as i'll move out to the living room then.. don't wanna share room with my brother too.. i know he needs his privacy.. it's ok.. if i can sacrifice my privacy and convenience in my own cosy room up to let my dad be rest assured he'll see all his children everyday.. this little sacrifice is nothing at all..

As long as my dad's happy.. i'll be happy.. as long as one day i can do my dad proud.. that's enough.. i just want a peaceful family even though my biological mum may not be with us.. but i am blessed to have a stepmum. Thank God for her..

Lord, you know my needs.. you know my situation... you hold my everything in the palm of your hands.. you can shut doors that no one can open and you can open doors that no one can shut.. you hear my cry.. you hear my prayer.. i'm sorry for all i've done to hurt you... but Lord.. use me... use me to bring my family to you.. cause it's only through you.. i know my family will be in peace... Lord would you show me your ways.. show me how to do it Lord.. show me...

I know YOU are there... always there... when things go right.. i'll praise you.. and even if things go wrong.. still i will praise you.. Lord give me the strength to prepare my crops in the fields.. and when it's time and YOU send the rain.. i will be there to receive your blessings Lord.................................... shalom.