♫ Sylvester

That saturday.. when pastor preached about family and stuffs... was all ok until when he mentioned that he met this girl.. and this girl could vividly remember how her mum left her when she was young.. that moment of time.. that moment of pain.. she could all still remember those scenes till this very age.. and it's so coincidentally.. happens to be like my situation too...

When i was young.. at about 6 years old.. things were getting so bad at home.. every night my grandpa would come up to scold my dad and stuff.. being a small boy at that time i didn't know what was going on.. just knowing that everyday was like... WAR.

Then one day.. when my mum left us.. my parents filed for a divorce.. that very day... i remember gripping onto the door grill with my siblings.. helplessly crying out loud and yelling.. begging and pleading my mum to come back home... but i could do nothing at all... only to see her back.. with her luggage and everything with her... as she slowly makes her way off.. from then on.. i've never seen my mum anymore... up till now.. i still remember how that gloomy day looked like... dad was almost drunk all the time... and i don't really understand or know what the problem was... only knowing that my dad worked so so so hard going through all the pain and tears to bring me & my siblings up.

Then Pastor told us to write to our parents a card.. as Mother's Day is like the next day... this is what i wrote on the card...



" My Dearest Mum,

  If i had the chance to ever see you again, i'd tell you everything that has happen after you left and how dad & the family is doing! Mum.. i never once blamed you for leaving us though it was really a heartpain to see you go but i could only cry helplessly behind the grills of the door watching you leave every step you take... i just wished things was better at that time.. i wished such things wouldn't have happened to our family.. Mum.. if i can ever see you again.. i hope i'll be able to tell you just how much i've missed you and how much i loved you. Since i was young i didn't really know what love was all about. I would wanna let you hear these words coming from my mouth.. I hope we would be reconciled.. though it's been more then 10 years already... Also Mum.. i really want to thank you so much ... that you were so great to have bore me in your tummy! I know i have the best Mum in the world... Thank you for being so strong to the point even when you're leaving us. Mum.. i appreciate it. I Love You. "

- SYLVESTER -


That was what i wrote on the card.. although i know in my heart... my mum will never get to see this card.. but i just felt like writing it down.. sometimes when i see a family outside... being together as one.. the love and the bond.. just made me question myself & God... " why couldn't i have that? " Why must i go through so much shit? " why can't i be like any other child that goes to school, study and get good grades to make thier parents proud?"  Well.. i guess things happen for a reason though... And i really think people out there who have a proper family should really appreciate their parents and honour them. Because they are just so lucky enough to have a proper family then a broken down one.. so PEOPLE !! CHERISH YOUR PARENTS! :D